19-07-02 Debrezion – Status Update.txt
I can’t really complain. I used to hyperventilate when I had panic attacks. Now my chest just hurts. I don’t know what to do about the chest pain. I just think I should get regular exercise and rest. Pukan said to ask to see a cardiologist. He said I was so young and even the staff at the hospital said my primary care physician might have me use some device. They never did. I never asked but I may still have some notes on my phone about it.
I just had an unpleasant memory. I remember two years ago I asked to be taken to the emergency room because I had chest pain. I tried to explain my symptom to my mother but she seemed to think I just meant I was feeling well mentally. My brother Sal said something along the lines of “Why do you want to go to the ER?” It’s just that he didn’t believe that I was really experiencing those symptoms. He said it was a little weird that I thought I was having chest pain a day after he asked about side effects of a new treatment I was on (I really should have wrote this in Libre Office.) I was hurt. Some time later I wished to tell him I didn’t even remember the conversation about the new treatment by the time I had chest pain. It wasn’t on my mind.
I know this has all past (Except for my physical and emotional pain) but I wish I knew when this all transpired. I believe I have a planner in a memo pad from this time (The ER visit) but I don’t know where it is.